Walk It Off
I’m trying to remember the exact phrase my daughter used when she relayed this story to me today. Was it “Tony had a problem” or was it “Tony was in trouble.” At first I did not know what she meant. After her grandmother left the room, she explained it to me. Her grandmother woke her up asking for my daughter’s car keys because she needed to go get Tony because Tony was in ‘trouble.’ When I proved too thick to understand she finally said overdosed. My daughter went with her grandmother to get Tony, from where who knows, some seedy little place in the big city far away from his mother’s house but not really that far. After finding him, his mother wanted to call 9-1-1. She wanted to take him to the hospital. After all, she worked thirty-five years at the gas company, now retired with a pension; she deserves public services just like everyone else. She kept insisting on calling 9-1-1. Tony could not say much but he managed a series of No. No. No. My daughter’s grandmother was not listening and was still determined to call 9-1-1. My ex-mother-in-law looked to her granddaughter for guidance, her granddaughter said, perhaps he should sleep it off, he cannot go to the emergency room, he will get into trouble because he is on parole, and parolees cannot have drugs in their system, but one must have drugs in their system in order to be admitted to rehab, but one cannot go to rehab if going back to prison takes precedent over rehab. She could not leave the idea alone until her son said one word, JAIL! Hearing this, the mother helped her son into his room where he is currently (as far as I know) sleeping it off. My daughter told me the only thing she could think of while it was happening was a phrase she used to hear me say a lot but she could not remember in what context. “Crash and burn baby, crash and burn.” I do remember using that phrase when members of my family did stupid stuff and suffered after wards, but I don’t recall with whom or on what specific occasions. It was not during happy times for sure, but I do remember using the phrase somewhat and remember the surrendering feeling of defeat, hopelessness and helplessness toward the situation (or people) I said it to/about.